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The Church is Messed Up!

By Kurt W. Bubna

Some time ago, I was sitting at a round table in a room filled with pastors, priests and even a few politicians. Represented was a large cross-section of the church. Liberals. Conservatives. Pro-life. Pro-everything and anything. Men. Women. Rob Bell devotees and Mark Driscoll disciples.

At the time, it was both fascinating and disturbing to me. Once again, from my right-thinking-sound-doctrine-I’ve-got-it-all-figured-out position of superiority I thought, the church is messed up! And instantly I heard the Holy Spirit say in my heart, “This is my church.”

Of course, I knew I was a part of the church, but I wasn’t so sure about the liberal woman minister with the priest’s collar. I had some serious doubts about the guy with a Brian McLaren book sitting on top of his new age looking Bible (is that a flower on the cover?). Anybody with any true understanding of the Bible knows that McLaren is a false teacher. Duh!

But those words keep ringing louder and louder in my head, “This is my church.”

OK, God. I guess if they love and believe in you, then they belong to you, but there’s a right and wrong. Surely somebody has got to take a stand for sound doctrine. Maybe those Bell-McLaren-Campolo lovers are going to make it to heaven (even if they don’t believe in hell), but they’re embarrassing the church (and me).

“This is my church.”

Yeah but Jesus, didn’t Paul warn us against heretics and those who abandon sound doctrine (it’s found in 2 Timothy 4:3 just in case you forgot the reference, Lord)? Aren’t we supposed to caution those who “gather around them a great number of teachers who say what their itching ears want to hear”?

“This is my church.”

Beets! Have you ever tried to have a theological argument with God? It’s frustrating. He lands on facts but refuses to forsake love. He cares about truth, but He keeps wrapping it up in grace.

My problem: I often use truth (at least my perception and understanding of truth) to beat the crap out of people God apparently loves.

Ouch, could I be a modern-day pharisee?

Do I make being right more important than being relational?

Truthfully, I’m never going to be a progressive liberal Christian. But have I built my faith on a “solid foundation of doctrine” while ignoring what Jesus said was most important?

While addressing the “religious” of his day, Jesus said in Matthew 22:37-40 (NIV), “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

Love. Everything hangs on love for God and love for others. Everything that’s been taught to us, and all the sound doctrine in the world hinges on one thing: love.

In another place, Jesus spoke these words that haunt me when I think about my occasionally self-righteous, theologically-angry heart, “By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another” (John 13:35, NIV).

Pop quiz: How will the world know we belong to a good, merciful, and gracious God? How will they know that Jesus lives?

Answer: If we love one another.

Could it be that simple?

Does sound doctrine matter? Of course, it does. (I’m not suggesting Christians embrace atheists as brothers or Buddhism as just another way to God.)

Shouldn’t we be aware of false teachers? Yes.

Do the orthodox tenets of our faith matter? Absolutely. (We must proclaim one God revealed in Three, one savior crucified yet alive, one way to the father and one church.)

But maybe I’m not as theologically sound as I think I am. Maybe I’m going to get to heaven and find out that some of the distinctives I held to so dearly are not so important in the end. Maybe there will be some folks standing next to me in heaven that I judged unworthy but Jesus embraced as his.

For my ultra-conservative friends, relax; I’m not suggesting you embrace some willy-nilly free-for-all belief system based on tolerance or compromise. Seek, teach, and stand on truth, but please do so in love. Is it possible you don’t have it all figured out.

For my ultra-liberal progressive friends, practice what you preach — be tolerant of those who judge you — and please do so in love rather than disgust. Maybe you don’t have it all figured out either.

One last confession . . .

I used to despise the word ecumenism. I saw it as a weak attempt to unite the church in an all-embracing, all-inclusive pseudo organization. Let’s get everybody in a circle, hold hands, sing Kumbaya and try to find our lowest common denominator as a point of unity. To me, it reeked of compromise.

I’ve changed.

Now I see ecumenism as unity around a central person and preeminent theme: Jesus and love.

Sadly, too often the Bride of Christ acts beastly toward one another. And tragically, a watching world thinks, You guys can’t even love each other! Why would I ever want anything to do with you? How that must break the heart of Jesus.

Tony Campolo once said, “The church is a whore, but she is my mother.” The first time I heard those words out of Tony’s mouth, I was shocked. Did he just say what I think he said? Seriously, you’re comparing the Bride of Christ to a slut? What-ev!

However, Tony might be right. Perhaps the church is a whore, a beast or even worse, but she is my mother and my sister and all Her children are a part of me. Even the Christians I strongly disagree with are forever connected to my life. Go figure.

I recently had a conversation with an author and a young woman who wrote about her spiritual journey. I read her book, and her pain and pursuit of God moved me. In many ways, I identified with her questions and struggles because I once wrestled with them in my life. The book is incredibly well written and destined for the New York Times bestseller list.

However, I was bothered a bit by her theology. It seemed she was an omnist (one who believes all religions and all faiths are equal in value and all lead to God). After reading the final chapter, I wondered if she knew and loved the Jesus I know and love. Unfortunately, I was ready to write her off as another confused thirty-something who wanted to define God in her terms rather than his.

Then we spoke.

And to my surprise and delight, she loves Jesus. She’s a Christian, and I have no doubt we will spend eternity together. Her book is simply a story of her yet unfinished journey of faith. (By the way, aren’t we all unfinished and in process?)

After we hung up, the Holy Spirit whispered to my heart again, “It’s my church, and it’s filled with people who haven’t figured it all out yet . . . just like you, Kurt. Will you love my bride?”

With eyes filled with tears, I cried, Yes, father, I will.

May I pray for you (and me)?

Jesus, forgive us for our spiritual arrogance. Forgive us for the times we have lobbed grenades at others in your church all in the name of sound doctrine. As You promised, lead us by your Holy Spirit into all truth, but help us walk in humility. Remind us frequently that, at best, we only know in part. And let us be shining lights of glory that point a dark world to you as we are brought to complete unity in your name. Amen.


22 I have given them the glory that you gave me,

that they may be one as we are one—

23 I in them and you in me—

so that they may be brought to complete unity.

Then the world will know that you sent me

and have loved them even as you have loved me.

– John 17:22-23 (NIV)


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Jan Shannon

Yes, brother!! All one big, messy, loud obnoxious family!!

Kurt Bubna

So true…so glad God so radically loves us nonetheless! Thanks for adding to the conversation, Jan.

Scott Davidson

I have a relative who would label (I do despise when people label themselves and others as a ______________ Christian) herself as a liberal Christian. Through several discussions she believes that God supports marriage between two people of the same sex and also believes that sexual immorality (homosexual sex) is not a sin. I say that God is the only one who knows the heart of a person but what a person believes give and says can give evidence where their heart really is. God’s word is the only authority and a person such as my relative who makes statements that are counter to what God says is calling God a liar and telling Him that He has it all wrong and she knows better than He does. She may believe she knows the God of the Bible but it is evidenced that she has made a god of her own making that condones sin. This is the battle within the Church which is against those who take God’s word literally where it is literal and those who like satan would say “did God really mean that?”

Kurt Bubna

Thanks for your comment, Scott. I agree, there is a battle, and obviously there is truth and falsehood (not everyone can be right). My hope in posting this blog was not to fan the flame of animosity, but to encourage/challenge people to love one another no matter what. Jesus said we must love even our enemies and do good to them…which means there is no way around the call to love. I have strong beliefs. I am a conservative evangelical. I know some (many) are deceived, but I cannot and should not mistreat anyone based on who or what I believe is right or wrong. I can’t speak for the entire Church, but I know my heart has focused too often on being right at the cost of also being relational. As I said in the post, I will stand for truth, but do so with a humble heart of love. Thanks again.

Scott Davidson

Agreed with the love part. We must conduct ourselves in a manner worthy of the Good News but many times people see speaking truth in love as being hateful.


Rev Sam Wells said that God chose Peter to be the corner of the Church. Peter was passionate, impetuous, gungo, at times insightful and others dense, and many times wrong, but his love of Jesus was always strong. Peter was much like the church.

Kurt Bubna

Great insight. Thanks for sharing!

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