God the Father by Ludovico Mazzolino (1480 – c. 1528)

Conviction: I do not love God Part 1

Inspired by “The Pilgrim Continues His Way”

By Nicholas Damascus

I do not love God..…         

For if I loved God, I would be continually thinking about Him with heartfelt joy.  Every thought would give me gladness and thanksgiving.

 I do not love my neighbor.….

For if I did love my neighbor, his misfortunes and sorrows would distress me and his happiness and joy would bring me delight.  Instead, I give no feeling of well being or gladness towards him with only feelings of contempt and envy.

 I do not have faith in a religious belief…

I don’t believe in immortality nor the gospel, for if I did, my behavior would reflect it.  If I had no doubt that beyond the grave lies eternal life, I would make every effort to transform my life into what my creator’s intention and purpose was for me and not what I have imagined it might be.

The spirits of darkness are better than me, although they do not love God, hate men, and live with pride, yet at least they believe and tremble.

 I am full of pride and sensual self-love….. 

I seek the approval in full view of others to see, flaunting and priding myself on my accomplishments.  I continue to make an idol of myself giving in to continual lusts and deceptive pleasures to fuel my sensual passions.   I show no respect for my fellow man and get angry when they do not agree with me.  I am the epitome of self-adornment, I am the golden calf.

If you wish to save your soul, you must first stop running away from yourself.

About Nicholas Damascus

Nick Damascus is one who seeks to discover and apply the proverbial question of what is truth and wisdom, to fill that gaping hole, to become complete and to become realistically and synergistically functional. In an attempt to live the Christian life, which he says is a definite work in progress, he has discovered that he's created the Christ that fits his lifestyle and agrees with his ego (and boy what an ego, he says), often finding himself avoiding what God intended him to be.

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